Over the river and through the woods

My kids have the day off school today. Not exactly sure why, but they do. So, we are going to go visit with my grandparents this afternoon. My grandfather is not doing very well at all. On top of his progressing alzheimer's, his doctors have done a few different scans lately and have found several masses that are "suspicious of cancer". He is not eating well and is losing weight very quickly. It is hard to see him deteriorating so quickly. It makes me sad that I do not get to see them as much as I did when I lived closer to them.

My grandma has said that he "does not want to be cut on", so I don't believe he will be undergoing any treatments. I am not certain of that though. I know that my grandma wants to be able to keep him at home as long as she can, but I know that it is a lot of work for her to take care of him. As of now, she is still able to get him out of the house now and then for a trip out to lunch or a quick grocery run. I have to wonder how much longer she will be able to take care of him by herself, though.

Procrastinate much?

So, I did play some Rock Band on the wii with the girls last night and I must say: I kicked A$$ at singing Eye of the Tiger. HA! I did not, however, start my English assignment. :( I really should be working on that but, I'm going to go hang out with my dad for a bit and take him out to dinner tonight for his birthday, so looks like I'll be doing this assignment and turning in tomorrow. Nothing like putting things off til the last possible minute. :/ Ah well.

Phew

Just got done with a good workout. I am beat. I tried some burpees. I'd never tried doing those before, they are much harder than they look! I kind of did my own modified version of them. I did 5 of those, then 2 sets of 10 knee push ups, 20-not sure what they're called but- kind of a half side lunge/twist thing with an 8 lb medicine ball (10 per side), and 100 rope turns with the jump rope. I did this circuit 3 times and then did 3 sets of 10 bench presses (65 lb) and then hit the punching bag for about 5 minutes. May not seem like a lot, but I could feel my heart pounding throughout my entire body and am dripping with sweat.

Now, it's time for a shower, then dinner, and maybe some wii with the girls and a friend's daughter that's staying the night. OR, I could always start my assignment for English that's due on Sunday. Hmm...

Lame

I've been feeling rather blah today. =(

I did, however, get in a good workout this evening. So, I guess that's good. I turned the music up loud and did a mix of some free weights, body weight exercises, and dancing to the music until I was completely worn out. Now I'm all showered and ready to just lay in bed and read. I'm so lame.

In the words of Queen...

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up, I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me?
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?


(lyrics found at http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/13168/)

Keep on going

Today I am starting my first class in the RN program. This quarter I will be taking Speech, English II, and A & P II. So, since there are no actual nursing classes this quarter, that means no clinicals! Yay!

I passed!

I passed the HESI yesterday! I needed an 850 and scored a 1027. I am SO relieved! Now, hopefully tomorrow, I will get a call from my school about moving on to the RN program this coming week. I talked with someone about it last week, and they told me that I should be able to. I certainly hope so!

Last night, I was up several times during the night with my little man who kept vomiting. He doesn't seem to have any other symptoms, no fever or aches, so I'm not sure what has made him sick. I just feel so bad for him. I hate it when my babies are sick!! :(

2010

It's a new year! Here's to hoping it is a better year than 2009!

Ugh!!

Why won't my stomach stop hurting?! Christmas night, I was feeling pretty bad. My stomach was upset and I had some major acid reflux going on. I figured it was due to the fact that I forgot to take my antacid med that morning.

The next morning, I woke up with horrible stomach cramps. Let's just say I spent a good portion of my day in the bathroom either hugging or sitting on the toilet. Yeah, good times.

Yesterday, I felt better. Not great, but I wasn't in the bathroom all day. However, last night I started getting stomach cramps again. And, what do you know, this morning, woke up sick again. Deja vu of 2 days ago.

This is SO not cool!

Hmm...

I wonder if I will ever enjoy this time of year again. I used to love Christmas time, but for the last couple of years, I have just not been feeling it. Bah! Humbug!

Another quarter down!

I took my last final today for the quarter. Now, I just need to pass the HESI in January!!

Two days of freedom then the kids will be on break too. I need to finish my Christmas shopping and then start wrapping!

Long day!

I am exhausted. I spent a majority of my day, from around noon until well after 8 pm, shopping. I do love shopping, but mostly when I can just go browse and not "have" to buy something. However, tis the season, so Christmas presents must be bought. I was anxious, after many hours fighting the crowds, to get back home and into my comfy jammies. I feel like I could fall asleep where I sit. The good news is that I did get quite a lot of my shopping done today, and without the kids in tow, which is always a plus. There are still a few things that I need to get, but I pretty much know what it is I'm looking for in those few things, and it shouldn't take me terribly long to finish up (fingers crossed!).

Now it's time for a nice, hot shower and then some relaxing with some bejeweled.

What a mess

My life is crumbling. I give up.

It's amazing...

...how one can be surrounded by so many people and still feel so, completely alone.

Friday

Well, I made it through another week! Ended up not having to take either of the 2 quizzes that were scheduled for this week. Bonus! The IV teacher was sick on Thursday and cancelled class, so we will take that quiz in 2 weeks (no classes next week because of Thanksgiving). The Pharm teacher turned our quiz for today into a take home, open book quiz. Nice.

The kids all seem to be feeling much, much better after a few days of having the flu and feeling miserable. So far I have managed to avoid catching it (knock on wood) and I hope that it stays that way!

Tonight is a quiet evening at home. My oldest is chatting on the phone with a friend from school, The younger two are playing wii, and I am laying in bed watching White Noise and playing bejeweled. Tomorrow I'm going to see New Moon, I've been waiting for it to come out for a long time...like...since I saw the first movie, and then read the books! My girls and I are very excited to see it.

Gah

Well, I made it through midterms (and passed them all, btw). This week, I have a quiz on Thursday in IV, and another one on Friday in Pharm. After that, next Monday is my check off in lab for starting an IV. EEK!

I am seriously considering staying home from clinicals tomorrow. I may have an excuse to anyway since my little man is sick, but I am just really not feeling being at the nursing home tomorrow!

Midterms

Three down, one to go. I had my IV midterm last week, today was med/surg and nursing concepts. Tomorrow is pharmocology, and I am SO stressing out about it! Everyone in my class failed the last pharm quiz. Then she did something with the grades due to a "miscalculation" and nearly everyone's grades went up by various amounts. I am still unsure how that quiz was graded. I'm a little nervous to even ask her about it, since she has been very pissy whenever anyone has asked her about it. But, I really need to find out what is going on with it. It just makes me extremely worried about how tomorrow's midterm will go. =(

Back to studying...

Finally Friday

This week has been just creeping by. Monday seems so long ago. In lab, I got checked off on IV drip rates and did my first practice stick on a mannequin. Tuesday and Wednesday were clinical days. I did treatments this week. Tuesday, I mostly applied TED stockings and ointments. Woo. Wednesday, I followed around the wound nurse. That was a bit more interesting. I assisted her in lots of dressing changes on bed sores and other wounds. Those can get quite nasty, for sure.

Yesterday was the mid-term in IV. It was much easier than I was expecting. I still think I missed a couple, but overall, I think I did well.

Today is finally Friday, but I have a feeling this afternoon at school is going to drag, and I will likely spend a lot of my weekend working on online quizzes for school, and hopefully doing some studying for the rest of my mid-terms next week. Sadly, I don't usually get much of a break from school even on the weekends, but at least I don't have to go sit in class. :-/

Sad

='(

BAD day...

Yesterday was a crappy day. It actually started out well. I was up and working on some note cards to study for school and was in a pretty decent mood. However, that was changed rather suddenly, and I started feeling really down about myself, life, etc. Shortly after that, I spilled my coffee all over myself and my bed. That certainly didn't lift my spirits. So, I get up to get a towel, and step on my laptop cord, twist my ankle, and fall down. At that point, I just burst into tears. Not because I was hurt, I was not. Physically, I was fine, but emotionally....I just had a meltdown.

It seems like things just add up, and I try to ignore how I'm really feeling. Some days are better than others, but there are times, like yesterday, when all those little things, that normally wouldn't be such a big deal, have piled up so high that it's just too much.

To top it off, I went out to do some shopping, and I guess I was distracted and not paying attention to where I was going because I ended up running into a curb with my front tire and putting a hole in it. So.....even more crying for me. :( By yesterday afternoon, my head felt like it was about to explode from crying so much all morning and afternoon.

If I never have another day where I feel like I did yesterday, it will be too soon!