Sad

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BAD day...

Yesterday was a crappy day. It actually started out well. I was up and working on some note cards to study for school and was in a pretty decent mood. However, that was changed rather suddenly, and I started feeling really down about myself, life, etc. Shortly after that, I spilled my coffee all over myself and my bed. That certainly didn't lift my spirits. So, I get up to get a towel, and step on my laptop cord, twist my ankle, and fall down. At that point, I just burst into tears. Not because I was hurt, I was not. Physically, I was fine, but emotionally....I just had a meltdown.

It seems like things just add up, and I try to ignore how I'm really feeling. Some days are better than others, but there are times, like yesterday, when all those little things, that normally wouldn't be such a big deal, have piled up so high that it's just too much.

To top it off, I went out to do some shopping, and I guess I was distracted and not paying attention to where I was going because I ended up running into a curb with my front tire and putting a hole in it. So.....even more crying for me. :( By yesterday afternoon, my head felt like it was about to explode from crying so much all morning and afternoon.

If I never have another day where I feel like I did yesterday, it will be too soon!

Here we go again!

Well, back to reality with school this week. I am so not feeling it. I can't seem to get motivated to really get started on anything. I am just dreading this quarter so much. :(

Yesterday was lab, and it went alright, I just completely did not feel like being there. I was also hoping to be able to trade with someone from the earlier lab so I could have the whole afternoon off, but the teacher knows no one likes her due to her overall teaching suckiness from last quarter, so she is refusing to let anyone switch. Oh well. It's still only 2 hours.

Today was orientation before clinicals at school, then we went to our clinical sites, where my group and I spent the afternoon giving flu shots. Tomorrow will be more of the same, and apparently next week we will be giving H1N1 shots.

I'm not as impressed with the facility I am at this quarter. It is another long-term care and rehab center. I would still rank it much higher than where I was placed 1st quarter, but far below where I was 2nd quarter. I got kind of spoiled 2nd quarter by being in a clean facility and not having to endure the oh-so-unpleasant strong aroma of urine all day long! Sigh.

Hoping I can start feeling a little more motivation before classes start on Thursday!