I need motivation!

I am sick of being stuck at my current weight! Sometimes I wish I didn't hate vomiting so much. :o

I also have tons of work to get done for school; studying, papers, etc. I can't seem to just sit down and do it. Then, I always end up cramming at the last minute...argh!

I have plenty of things left to unpack and put away at home too, though at least I'm FINALLY done getting everything out of the apartment and got the keys turned in today, so no more trips back there!

I just can't get motivated, I'm feeling very depressed lately :(

I'm a loser!

So, I'm not only a slacker on this blog, but also on my "weight loss" blog. And, let's face it, on the whole "losing weight" thing as well. :( I haven't updated my weight loss blog since freaking MARCH! Gah! I suck at life.

Well, I guess I mainly stopped updating because I wasn't losing any weight. Somehow I've managed to lose a couple of pounds over the last week. Probably stress related. I definitely haven't been actively trying, and I haven't been to the gym in at least a month. I really do need to get back on it. I also need to start drinking more. I think I'm likely a little dehydrated.

I have 2 more quizzes this week. One in my online English class, and one in my IV Therapy class. Both are on Wednesday, and neither one am I prepared for. I am such a procrastinator! Sigh... Well, at least if it's the stress causing me to drop lb's, then this should be another good week for it!

I'm a slacker

It's not so much that I haven't had anything going on lately, I just never feel like taking the time out to blog about them. Here are the basics:

New house- still moving stuff, still unpacking...slowly between studying and writing papers for school...still have blinds and ceiling fans that need put up, still need a fridge!! You don't realize how much you rely on your fridge until you don't have one. :(

New quarter at school- 2 weeks into 3rd quarter. Already turned in one paper, taken 3 quizzes, and gone to 2 clinicals. I won't have any clinicals again this quarter until August 15th. So, good news this quarter is I don't have to go every week. Bad news is that my clinicals (aside from the 2 I already had) will be on Saturday mornings. Early. 7:00 am- 11:30 am. At least they're only 4 hours. The first one though, I have to be there at 6:30 am. Nice.

Umm, I guess that's about it.

The weekend...

It has been a very busy weekend so far. Looks like it will stay that way too. On Friday, we dropped the kids off at my grandma's, went to get utilities turned over, closed on a house, went to lunch, stopped at a friend's house to pick up some paint supplies, then it was back to pick up the kids, stopped to buy a bunch of paint, and head to the house to start a crazy amount of painting.

There are 7 rooms that I want to get painted before moving in. So far, after spending all of Friday evening, and all of yesterday afternoon/evening there, I think 2 of the rooms are actually all the way done. Two other rooms have been started, one of which 3 of the 4 walls are done, I just forgot to buy the paint for the "accent wall", so that's all that needs done in there. That leaves 3 rooms that haven't even been started. I knew that this was going to take a while, but I figured, for whatever reason, that it would be further along by this point. Oh well.

So, now I need to get ready for church, then it'll be back to the house for yet another day of painting. At least it's good exercise!

Hmm...

I'm very sleepy. Guess I should go to bed instead of trying to think of something to blog about.

Today:

This morning, I spent well over 2 hours in the waiting room of the dentist's office with two whiney kids while we waited for my oldest to get a root canal and a broken tooth fixed. (Long story short, we were told she had this root canal done 3 and a half years ago when she first broke her tooth, and were charged for it, but it had actually not been done...we find this out when she breaks the resin off the tooth again a week ago and we go to get it fixed). Anywho, she had to be on antibiotics for a week before they could do the work today. So, silly me, I thought I would just take the other 2 kids and hang out in the waiting room. Not sure what I was thinking there...

Anyway, they told me as we were checking out that she was due to come back for a cleaning. I told them that I was also due for one and she said they had openings this afternoon. Well, that's good, I guess. Usually we have to wait a bit before getting in. So, I'm headed back out in just a few to get my teeth sparkly clean! :-) This time, I am dropping the other 2 kids off at my SIL's house first!!

Tonight, I have some family coming into town and we are having a get-together at my grandmother's house for pizza and chillin'.

One more to go...

I have 3 finals out of the way. Just have to go in tomorrow for my lab check-off final. We checked off on 4 skills this quarter: sterile dressing changes (wound care), trach care, NG tube, and foley catheter. I'll draw one of these 4 skills out of a bowl, and that's the one I'll have to do.

It kinda sucks that I don't know ahead of time which skill I'll need to do, because I can't just concentrate on practicing that one skill. I have to know them all beginning to end, and know how to properly document each procedure as well. In a way, I suppose, that is good, because I have to know how to do them all, but for the sake of studying it would have been nice.

So, once I get that out of the way I will officially be half way through the LPN portion of my nursing program! Woo!

Well, guess it's time for me to go get my sleep on so I can be ready to get this over with tomorrow!

UGH!!

I am SO ready for this quarter to be over! I hit a wall about a week ago. I have spent many hours studying in this last week and I feel like I just can't retain anything I am reading! I am in dire need of my upcoming 2.5 week break before Summer quarter starts!!!

Taking a breath

I spent a good part of the afternoon yesterday working on school work. Today, I finished up with some assignments I'd been working on and got them all submitted. Just that much less to worry about.

I also went to the pool today, for the first time (of many, I'm sure) of the season. The kids really wanted to go, as they do every day, so I took a book over and read for an hour while they swam. It was sort of relaxing...except for about the 100 times I got splashed with freezing cold water. We got back home just as Pete was leaving, with his dad, to go to PA to pick up his grandfather's vehicle to bring back to Ohio. His grandfather recently passed away, so his dad is going to either keep or sell it.

Right now the kids are outside playing, I finished my book, and I'm enjoying a few minutes of quiet. Sure, I have more school stuff I could be working on, but...nah....I think I'll just sit here and enjoy doing nothing! :-)

Cancelled

I got a call from my clinical instructor this morning just as I got out of bed and turned on my flat iron. She is sick and was calling to tell me she was sorry but would have to cancel our clinicals for today. To which, of course, I told her it was ok, and that I hope she feels better, but on the inside was saying YES! I'm going back to sleep!!

Unfortunately, I was unable to fall back asleep, because since I was awake, my daughter was apparently incapable of pulling her own hair up into a ponytail, like she does herself every other morning, and so I had to do that, then listen to my other daughter complain about how she was running late because she was waiting until the last minute to get ready, and then my son woke up.

So, now that I've fed my son and myself breakfast, and I have some coffee, I should get started on studying for the quizzes I have tomorrow and Friday...

No rest for the weary...

This week is going to be pretty busy too, looks like. I just finished with my 1st psychology assignment for this week, so at least that is out of the way. I don't have another one due in there until Sunday night, and it involves a 2 page paper, or 8 PowerPoint slides. Probably won't be terribly difficult, but most likely rather boring work and may be slightly time consuming.

I have a care plan rough draft due at my clinical on Wednesday, as well as another paper on a disease process.

This Friday, 2 other assignments are due as well. One is a case study for my pharmacology class, and the other is a group poster project that our clinical groups have to work together on. One other person and myself are in charge of making up the poster to go along with a paper on the musculoskeletal system. It shouldn't be very difficult either, but it will also be time consuming.

I've been in a funk lately, and haven't been feeling very motivated. It's really not cool! All I want to do is cry or sleep. Or, sleep so that I'm not crying. Hhhhhhhhhhh. It's frustrating. I hate feeling this way. Perhaps it's partly due to PMS (cramping and bloating is on it's way this week!), but I know that isn't my main problem. There are other factors too. But I have just got to get over it!!

...

:'(

Phew!

I'm so glad to have this week behind me! Midterms are over, I survived. I am taking tonight off...not working on any school work. Gonna maybe have dinner with my dad and the kids, and then hang out just me and my kiddos tonight. :-)

Stressed

I have been totally stressing out the past couple of weeks with school. There is SO much work and SO much studying, it's insane. I knew this was not going to be a cake walk going in, but sheesh! There are papers and care plans and case studies and quizzes and skill check-offs and registration for next quarter and MID-TERMS!!! It is never-ending!

This week has been extremely stressful. On top of all of my regular school work that needs taken care of, I have been studying for exams (one Monday, one today, and one tomorrow). I literally spent all of last evening studying for today's test, which I think actually went pretty well, and have spent all of this evening so far, studying for tomorrow's.

I know, this is what I signed up for, I shouldn't complain. It's just kinda taking a toll on me. I have housework backing up, my kids can't seem to leave me alone for 5 minutes straight when I'm trying to study, I'm biting people's heads off left and right, and, and, and....I just need a break!

I think if I make it through tomorrow's lectures and exam, I'm going to need a huge drink of something strong!!

Welp, gotta study some more, so off I go. I *really* wish I had a photographic memory!! (I also really wish I could stop effing stress-eating!) hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Hmmm...

Had a friend from the past request me on facebook recently. We were very good friends for many years, then she met some loser and married him 6 weeks later, now he has spent all her money, left her crazy in debt, and finally has left her (so I hear). While she and this guy were together, he would totally manipulate her and keep her from interacting with any of her old friends because we were apparently all "bad influences on her". So, over the last couple of years, we have basically fallen out of contact with each other. I did babysit her daughter for a while, but beyond that, we had no friendship whatsoever. She had just turned into a completely different person than the one I was friends with.

Anyway, she asked me tonight to meet her for lunch next week. I'm a little concerned. I didn't want to be rude and not respond, or tell her no. And, I am interested to see how she is doing now and I hope she is doing well. So, I will meet her (unless she cancels, which she was notorious for doing in the past) but, it is probably going to be a bit awkward. We'll see...

Study time

I have so much studying to do! So, naturally, I'm blogging instead. I have 2 tests on Friday. One in pharmacology and one in my nursing class. For my pharm class, we are covering beta blockers, alpha blockers, expectorants, and I'm sure there are others, but I can't think of them right now. In nursing, we are going over common lab tests, and I have to know the normal values for like a million different lab tests. There is no freaking way I am going to remember all this crap!

Thursday, I will have to check off on sterile dressing changes in my lab. Hopefully that will go ok. As soon as I get that one out of the way, I need to begin looking at trach care and suctioning (yum) for my next checkoff.

Tomorrow is clinical, and I still have paperwork to complete from last week to turn in tomorrow. *sigh* At least I got my Wednesday psych assignment done yesterday, so that's one less thing for me to worry about this week.

Tonight I am watching my youngest 2 nephews for about 5 hours, so I guess I should get off of here now and get my study on!

Next week: mid-terms! Ahh!

New bike and 4 less teeth

My baby boy turned 5 on Sunday, and we had a party for him at Magic Mountain. He had a good time and got lots of nice presents. His favorite was his new bike! He calls it his "two-wheeler bike". So cute!



Yesterday morning I went in and had my wisdom teeth extracted. That was not very fun. I have been told for years, by more than one dentist and my orthodontist, that they needed to come out. I even went in for a consultation with this oral surgeon back in 2006, but then didn't end up going through with the surgery then. After having more issues with pain and swelling around the teeth, I finally decided it was time to get them out.

I went in at 7:40 in the morning and they pretty much took me right back. Once I was in the chair, they hooked up all these monitors and oxygen to me and started an IV. The next thing I (vaguely) remember was them having me stand up from the chair and get into a wheelchair where they then wheeled me out to my car. I had gauze sticking out of each side of my mouth, completeing the effect of my looking like a walrus.

After that, I remember getting home and walking inside and down the stairs to the recliner. (I was told not to lay flat, and that a recliner would be ideal.) I laid there and slept for a few more hours. I pretty much stayed in that chair for the rest of the day, except for trips to the bathroom and getting water. They actually recommended that I sleep last night in the chair, but I was actually quite uncomfortable from sitting there for so long. So, I ended up sleeping in my bed propped up on my pillows. Surprisingly, I slept pretty well.

I'm still in some pain today though. It hurts quite a bit to even open my mouth to talk. I've taken 2 vicodin since the procedure, and I'm trying to avoid taking them if I don't absolutely need to. But, I may have to take one more today and hopefully I'll be good to go.

My weekend...

Wow, let me tell you, any time your day starts off with sitting on the toilet and puking into a bag, you can pretty much guarantee it's not going to be a good day. That was my day yesterday. I spent my enitire day either in bed or in the bathroom. Not good times! I did lose about 4 lbs of water weight yesterday though. Of course, I expect those to all come back. :(

So, I missed a quiz in my lab yesterday, but hopefully I will be able to make that up next week. I feel much better today. Not great, but significantly better. I had my first 2 tests of the quarter today. I think they went pretty well, so that is good.

Tonight, I agreed to watch a friend's daughter, and I have to take my son to the first of 3 birthday parties for this weekend. He is bowling from 6-9 tonight (and I'll have to take all the girls with me too. Fun, fun). Tomorrow, I am going to a bridal shower, and my son has another birthday party to attend at the same time, so Pete will have to take him to that party and deal with the girls. Haha! :o Then on Sunday, my baby boy is turning 5!!! His birthday party will be Sunday afternoon.

Some time tomorrow, I will have to fit in buying presents and party stuff for my son's birthday. I stopped after classes today and bought the shower gift and the two kiddie birthday presents. I will also need to find the time to do my psych assignment that is due Sunday night. Ugh! My weekend is gone before it even starts!

Today in a list:

*My head is throbbing!

*I've been having the same stomach pains all day that I was having a few weeks ago

*I had a consultation with an oral surgeon today

*Have an appointment to get my wisdom teeth extracted next Monday! :o

*I started my period (I know you were dying to know that!)

*Still have to study my patient's meds for tomorrow's clinical so that I can pass them. (Of course my patient would have to be one with 20+ different meds!)

*All I've had to eat today is a handful of pretzel sticks. I'm hungry!

* I am hoping to go to bed early tonight. I feel like I could pass out now! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

I just need to do this...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Carry on.