My 10 Things That I Hate About Me List

I'm FAT!

I am quick to anger.

I have a very difficult time getting up in the morning. I have a hard time getting to sleep at night and am, in turn, very sleepy in the mornings.

I can't cook. I don't like cooking and have NO desire to learn how.

I'm shy. I have a hard time making friends because of this. People think I'm stuck up because I don't talk much. (Why is that by the way? Why do people assume that quiet people are stuck up and not just shy?)

I am forgetful.

Did I mention that I'm fat? Oh yeah, I forgot :)

I care about what other people think about me. I really hate that. Why should I care what you think about me?

I am lazy. (Partially, I believe, because I am ALWAYS tired...read line 3)

I don't like to read. I miss out on so much and feel uninformed because of this.

I can not think of 10 things that I actually like about myself.

One Whole Year!

Well, today my baby is officially one year old! As promised yesterday, here are some random pictures of him from his hospital picture to today!

His hospital pic:

(sorry this is so big!)

With biggest sister a few hours after birth:


In swing watching mommy on the computer at a few weeks old:


In his bouncy seat around 3 months old:


In Pack-N-Play at great-grandma's at 10 months:


With mommy (me) and papaw at his party last Saturday:


And finally, today, the birthday boy with great-grandma:


Well, I hope you enjoyed my little slide show presentation of my boy!

Too much Cake! (And a birth story)

O.k, so we had my son's first birthday party on Saturday. It went pretty well, I think. There was so much left over cake. Of course, I cannot have cake within my reach and stay out of it. It's simply impossible. I have zero willpower. I love cake and creamy icing! So I ate sooooo much cake this weekend. Not only cake though, but lots of other stuff too. The word "diet" just did not exist for me this weekend. As a result, I felt like total and utter crap last night. I was up and down all night with acid reflux and woke several times in the middle of the night to the taste of vomit in my mouth. EW! Ok, so I am officially back to watching what I eat. I love to eat, but I haven't felt so full and sick in a long time. There is even still some cake downstairs, but I haven't taken one bite of it today!

Well last year at this time I was having contractions about 6 minutes apart. They started around 7:30 pm at 10 minutes apart. Then soon got to 4 minutes apart and I was at the hospital between 10 and 10:30 pm. When I got there, they were about 3 minutes apart and getting closer and much, much stronger. I walked the halls for a while stopping every 2 minutes on the dot for the contractions. I finally got to a room and asked for an epidural. (I did not get one when having either of the girls, but at this point, they were right on top of each other...no breaks in between. One would start practically before the last one ended!) By about 12:30 am I had the epi and was feeling NO pain. God bless the anesthesiologist!!

So by that point, this was by far the longest labor I have had seeing as how I wasn't even near delivering yet. (1st baby 5.5 hours, 2nd baby 4.5 hours). The epidural slowed down my contractions considerably, but it wasn't so bad, since I wasn't feeling anything.

Somewhere around 5 am I was fully dilated and started pushing. I was really scared that it would take a long time to push him out since I couldn't really feel how hard I was pushing. However, at 5:20 am he was out. All 9 lbs 4 oz and 20 inches of him. I simply cannot believe it has been a year! It just does not seem possible!

Well, hopefully I will have some pictures to post tomorrow.

Not too much going on tonight...

I've been dealing with a sick baby this week (yes again, the kid just can't seem to get completely rid of this stomach bug). Since Monday morning, he hasn't been able to keep much of anything down. Nothing gets you up and going in the morning better than being puked on! Today he has been better.

I hope he is all better by this Saturday. His first birthday is Tuesday, but we are having his party on Saturday. I'm really excited that I may be seeing an old friend from high school there that I haven't seen in years. We were practically inseperable in junior high, but then started hanging out with different crowds in high school. Never had a falling out or anything, we just didn't have any classes together and pretty much just lost contact. I ran in to her dad the other day and asked him to have her give me a call. Come to find out she has a little girl that's 4 (I did know about her) and a little boy that just turned 1 on the 2nd. So I invited her to the party. I really hope she can make it.

I also have 2 other high school buddies hopefully coming (one if she doesn't have to work and the other if she doesn't have her baby before then). It'll be like a mini reunion.

I still can't put on my sneakers. I can walk a lot better on my broken toe, but it still hurts to put on any shoe that covers my toe.

I'm not going to mention how disappointed I am once again this week. Maybe if I don't mention it, a certain "idol" will finally go home next week.

Well, better go take a shower and try to get some sleep.

A Word Of Thanks

I just want to say thank you to Trinity, who spent ALL DAY yesterday watching my 2 girls! We decided at the last minute to accompany my father in law to Pennsylvania to visit my hubby's grandfather (his last living grandparent) who has been having some health problems and was recently hospitalized for a week. My grandmother watched the boy, and Trin and G took the girls. She even had to take my oldest to a birthday party. I just want to let you guys know how much we appreciate your help...and not just this time, but all the other times you've watched them for us. I don't know how we'd survive without our family!

Butterflies

Well, today I took my 5 year old on a field trip with her preschool class to the Franklin Park Conservatory's butterfly exhibit. It was really fun. I also took my older daughter on this same field trip 3 years ago. She had a fun time and brought home a caterpillar (which she appropriately named "caterpillar"). We will put it into a shoe box once it forms its chrysalis and watch it transform into a butterfly. Then we will let it go. She learned some very interesting facts about butterflies today. For example, did you know that if a human baby were to eat comparably as much as a baby caterpillar, that by the time it was one month old, it would be the size of a bus? Wow! That's a lot of eatin'! Maybe I should have been born a caterpillar???!

NNOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

AGAIN?!!! I am so devastated!! Please, please, please, America, I am begging you, SEND SCOTT HOME!!!!

Great Weather...

Ok, so it isn't very often we get to say this here in Ohio, but what great weather we're having! Today was awesome! Not too cold, not too hot. Just right.

Today was a nice family day for us as well. The girls played outside for a while this morning, then we went to lunch and then to the park. All the kids had a fun time swinging, even the baby. He did very well for quite a while before getting bored and trying to chew on the swing. The girls, of course, did not want to leave (they could swing for hours!!). I was really itching to go on a nice nature walk, but with my gimp toe, I couldn't. We didn't stay as long as we could have either, because we forgot to pack the stroller up in the new van. The little man got really squirmy and wanted badly to get down and eat the mulch.

So, we came home and the girls went back outside. (I'm glad to say that they are making all kinds of new friends here now that the weather has been so nice and everyone is sending their kids outside.)

Overall, it was a very nice weekend. I started off the weekend, Friday night, by going to a surprise birthday party at a friend's house. I stayed later than everyone else and watched a movie with the hostess. We watched Closer. I'll tell you what, my friend is not the best movie selector. This movie was, as my hubby would say "a$$". We thought it would be decent since it had Julia Roberts and Natalie Portman in it, but alas, we were wrong. The last move we watched together (also her pick) was The Forgotten. That movie also wanked. Next time, I'm picking the movie, my friend.

Saturday, I went and visited my dad's parents for a little while. They don't really live all that far away, maybe 15 minutes, but we don't get to see them very often. We had borrowed one of their vehicles last week, before purchasing our new ones, and accidentally left a couple of the kids' jackets in it. So that gave us a nice excuse to go visit them.

Then we stopped on the way home so I could buy my son some spring/summer type clothes, since he had absolutely none. Then we were back home for a relaxing evening with the kids playing outside and us lounging on the couches with the windows open enjoying the breeze.

That about sums up my weekend. It is over all too quickly. Hopefully this nice weather will stick around and we will be able to enjoy many of these incredible weekends before summer kicks in!

I Wish You Enough

Recently I overheard a mother and daughter in their last moments
together at the airport. They had announced the departure.
Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the mother said "I love you
and I wish you enough."

The daughter replied, "Mom, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom".

They kissed and the daughter left. The mother walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her privacy but she welcomed me in by asking "Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?".

"Yes, I have," I replied. "Forgive me for asking but why is this a forever goodbye?". "I am old and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral" she said.
When you were saying goodbye, I heard you say 'I wish you enough'. May I ask what that means?".

She began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone".

She paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail and she smiled even more. "When we said 'I wish you enough' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them".
Then turning toward me she shared the following as if she were reciting it from memory ---

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

She then began to cry and walked away.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.

I received this in an email and I know some of you who read my blog received it as well, but I thought I would post it anyway.

So Close!!!

It was so close, I could taste it. Scott was going to leave and then, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! What? Are you kidding me? Why Oh why? Why did he stay? He SOOOOO should have been the one to leave tonight. Once again America disappoints me:( !!!!!!!!!!!!
Send Scott home! Send Scott home!!
And what was with that little speech he gave at the end when Seacrest asked him if he thought he was leaving? Was he reading that? Seriously! That was terrible. Could he have talked ANY slower? I submit that he could not have.

As a side note, I would also like to add that it bugs the snot out of me when Fantasia pronounces her "s"'s like "sh"'s!!! Jusht shtop it already. It'sh really annoying!

Sick Boy

Well, as I mentioned before, my little boy is sick. He's been running a fever and tylenol hasn't seemed to help much. He has also not been eating very well and I'm afraid he's going to get dehydrated. I will probably end up taking him to the doctor tomorrow, well today technically. If you are familiar at all with our situation, you know that it has always been a task to get this little guy to eat, especially when he's sick. Everything makes him gag. I have noticed recently, before he got sick this time, that he has been eating well as far as solid foods go. It's just the whole drinking thing, he doesn't do well. He still won't nurse or take a bottle unless he is sleepy and still refuses the sippy cup or straw. I don't know what I'm going to do with him. He is also being extra clingy right now. He doesn't want me to even put him down and heaven forbid if I have to leave his sight.

My daughters have found a couple of new friends here in our new community. They have been complaining about having to leave their friends at our old house and not having any other kids around here to play with. Well, the past 2 evenings, they have played with the 2 kids from 2 doors down. They have been having fun kicking a ball around, jumping rope and doing flips in the grass. However, they tell me that the kids are moving soon. Hopefully this summer they will meet more kids at the swimming pool or outside playing. I just feel so sad for them when they say they miss our old house and their old friends. I miss our house too, but we are moving on, starting new with a lot of things. Our new home, my hubby's new job, our new cars we got this past weekend, new schools for the girls next year. Let's just hope and pray there are no new little people in our lives anytime too soon!;) I would definitely go over the edge of craziness that I am teetering on right now.

Well, that's it for now. Time to try to go get some sleep before the baby wakes up crying.

Broken Toe

Ok, I have never had a broken bone in my life. I've sprained my ankle before, but never broken anything. Well tonight while walking through my home, I stubbed my toe really hard. I have obviously stubbed my toes before, but this time, my toe swelled up and I can not put any pressure on my foot at all. I thought, well, I should at least be able to walk on my heel and still get around, but even that sends a sharp pain through my toe. Man, this sucks! How am I supposed to lug a clingy sick baby around when I can barely get myself from one place to the next? Don't think there's much sense going to the doctor either, since they can't really do anything for a broken toe. (Alright, so I don't know for sure that it's broken, but it may as well be if I can't walk on it.) I know what you're thinking...if I didn't weigh so much, it wouldn't hurt as bad to support my weight on it. But, I don't think I could weigh 10 pounds and support my weight on it. How am I supposed to work out when I can't use one foot? Of course, I haven't lost any more weight this week, in fact I think I've gained one or two back. I could be retaining water as I am cutting way back on, and coming close to an end of breastfeeding my almost one year old and could be getting my "visitor" back at any time. But now, I won't even be able to work out if I wanted to on my gimp toe. I give up, I am just meant to be fat!

Time for a new post

Wow! How boring am I that I can go for so many days without anything to blog about? I did attempt a post on Wednesday or Thursday but then I lost it when I tried to post it and I didn't feel like typing it out again. So here are some more "why"'s that are on my mind tonight:

*Why are there so many stupid people? I'm not talking book smarts here either. Just plain ole common sense stupidity.
*Why is my mother-in-law such a nut job?
*Why is it that people (humans) hold grudges? (I'm not excluding myself, so don't give me any lip! :) )

Well that's it for now. I better try to get some sleep. I have a feeling I won't be getting much tonight since the baby is sick. He'll probably have me up all night. On top of that, Spring break is officially over now so I'll need to be up bright and early to get the girls ready and off to school in the morning.

What Doctors Really Mean:

"This should be taken care of right away.
"Translation: I'd planned a trip to Hawaii next month but this is so easy and profitable I want to fix it before it clears up on its own.

"Let me check your medical history."
Translation: I want to see if you've paid your last bill before spending any more time with you.

"Why don't we make another appointment later in the week."
Translation: I have a tee-time in fifteen minutes --or-- I need the bucks, so I'm charging you for another office visit.

"We have some good news and some bad news."
Translation: The good news is, I'm going to buy that new BMW. The bad news is, you're going to pay for it.

"Let me schedule you for some tests."
Translation: I have a forty percent interest in the lab.

"If it doesn't clear up in a week, give me a call."
Translation: I don't know what it is. Maybe it will go away by itself.

"This may hurt a little."
Translation: Last week two patients bit off their tongues.

"Well, we're not feeling so well today, are we...?"
Translation: I'm stalling for time. Who are you and why are you here?

"Do you suppose all this stress could be affecting your nerves?"
Translation: You're as crazy as a loon. Now, if I can only find a shrink who'll split fees with me...

"I'd like to run some more tests."
Translation: I have no clue what's wrong. I need time to go home and search WebMD.com.

Thank You America!

Let me just say...God Bless The U.S.A.!!!

She's gone! Hip hip hooray!

I'm EWE-nique!

Here are my results from a quiz I took off guru's blog.






You are a -
Neutral Sheep!
Congrats - you do what you like! You make your own rules, not follow the flock!

Which flock do you follow?


this quiz was made by alanna

She needs to GO! NOW!

Two words for ya, Mikalah....Buh Bye!
Man, if she doesn't leave this week, I will be extremely disappointed in America!!

Another "Why?" post

WHY:
-do people not know how to take a joke?
-do people try to make me feel like I'm worthless?
-do I let what they say affect me?
-did some guy in a nearby city here in Ohio just shoot himself because he lost his job at Safe Auto today? (I mean come on, so you lost your job, sack it up and get another one you crazy mofo!!!)
-does my son not sleep through the night anymore? (argh! this is getting really old, son!)
-do I not have any close, reliable friends? (No offense, sweetiepie, by close, I also mean in distance).
-are none of my MSN contacts never online at the same time as me?
-does no one want to take part in my neck/knee measurement experiment?

Today

Today would have been my mom's 47th birthday. I miss her terribly. I wish I still had my mommy around. There has been so much stuff going on in my life lately that I would have gone to her to talk about and she would have said things to make me feel better. She was one great lady and I will miss her everyday until I see her again.

Interesting factoid

My hubby and I were just taking measurements of ourselves to see how many inches we have lost since the beginning of the year. (Well, he never actually took measurements to start, so he was just checking to see what his were). Well, we found something interesting about both of us. The measurement around my neck (just goofing around measuring stuff-this was not one I am keeping track of) and the measurement around my kneecap were the same. So my hubby measured his neck and kneecap and also got the same measurement for both. So I thought I would get a little experiment going here. You don't have to post your #'s but, just for kicks, measure your neck and knee and see if you get the same # for them. I'm just curious to know if this is a coincidence, or if it is pretty standard, like your wingspan is supposed to be the same as your height.